I got a call this morning. Nope, I didn't get it.
NOW what? Teaching is all I know, and that's what I've been doing for the past sixteen years. I've worked my ass off all summer filling in applications and answering essays and everyting else, and when I wasn't doing that, I was feeling guilty because I wasn't doing it. Ever since that last contracted job that flamed out, I've been doing everything right, and it's STILL NOT BLOODY GOOD ENOUGH!!! What does it take? Sheesh! I knew it would be tough, but not this tough!
School starts again on Tuesday, and I'll just hop back onto that hamster wheel of subbing and tutoring, putting in fourteen hour days for little reward. But I've already taken steps to start the whole career change process going, so we shall see what happens.
Sorry about all that. Thanks for letting me vent and rant.